Not that complicated

I tend to overthink. In particular, if I’ve lived with an impairment for a long time, there’s an impulse to think that the reasons for it must be complicated. It’s a matter of pride: if the solution were simple, surely I would have overcome the problem by now.

All of the nuances of performance anxiety I’ve discussed—its multiple causes and the diverse ways this project will address them—it’s all true. But that said, my ease on stage and my ability to perform at my potential has already gotten about 75% better from simple desensitization. You want to get comfortable performing, just perform a bunch. 

The surprising thing to me is that the change was so dramatic not after dozens and dozens of performances, but around concert number ten.